Moment of transparency

Just feeling broken today and this is beyond the emotional roller coaster I find myself these days. Being yanked around is getting tiring.

Please pray for me when the Lord bring me to mind. My efforts are not good enough wherever I turn...and my "can do it" response is wearing thin and the degrading comments of others ring in my ears threatening to undo me. I realize my own failures as well and this adds so much to my undoing.

The Bible tells me I am precious in His sight and that He loves me. Pray that I would recieve that and feel it. That needs to take the place of the condeming and pittiful looks I am receiving at the moment.

In a perfect world (and I believe that is coming) people will look to Jesus as the judge and there will be peace. No tempers flaring, no accusations, no frustrations and do I need to mention no sadness....NO tears of sadness. I want that so badly. What will it be like to have Jesus 100% love and compassion, righteous in judgement, tender, FORGIVING, full of peace and understanding of the ones He has created - to be judge over all the earth? In the new earth we will not grow weary just as Jesus because we will be like Him! I won't ever tire....what will that be like?

Dear friends I pray for you. When you are in trials as I am facing reflect on the promise of scripture...there will be a day we see Jesus face to face, no more tears and no more shame. Paul tells us to have our minds centered on Christ and His coming...did you know that? Matthew tells us to look up! We are told to be expectant. Today more than yesterday I am...but I need to be everyday!

Hebrews 12:2 - fixing our eyes on Jesus the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. WOW! I never really noticed it before so clearly that He "despised the shame". Think about that. He hated the shame. Why? Because His eyes were looking up!!! "for the joy set before Him". Jesus is sitting down at God's right hand just waiting to get up and take us home. Tears of joy just fill my eyes as I am so expectant .... more than I ever have been in my life. Jesus come quickly.

If you know the Lord and you don't have the excitment for His coming then ask the Lord to reveal that to you. He wants that in you and now I have a better idea of why it's so important...there is a peace I feel from Him that goes beyond just the "feeling/sensation" of peace. I know it. I am thankful that I could write this out in front of you readers/friends.....God is taking me through a process (that's not over until I'm with Him) and allowed me to spill this out in front of you. :) Now you know a little more how Jesus made my mind to work : )

Please continue to pray for me....and for your friends as they have need. Be a good friends to those you know and keep looking up....we were meant to share in Christ's sufferings and if that adds up to feeling the way we feel at this moment and on then ask God for His grace to bear up underneath it. Look up. Wait for the Lord. If He decides to tarry then He will give us the grace to go on. He did that for me today, just now; He will do that for you.

I love all my friends. You are precious gifts to me.
Dawn