Word

For the word of God is living an dactive and sharper than any two-edged sword, and peircing as far as the division of soul and spirit, of both joints and mrrow, and able to judge the thgouths and intentions of the heart. Hebrews 4:12

Such a cool verse and it was brought to mind by someone living in a painful memory. The word of God is true, faithful and complete but if not handled by another absent of living in God's grace and mercy, spoken with hatred and condemnation does not have the effect that God has intended for us to hear. There are wolves out there that would decieve and destroy us and in fact they live for that. They desire our affliction and our fall, they hate the healing power of the word of God and will therefore use it to twist the meaning and make it somthing totally different. There just reward is upon them, my friend living in pain. 2Timothy 2:15 "Be diligent to present yourself approved to God as a workman who does not need to be ashamed, accurately handling the word of truth." Those that twist scripture have no place with God becuase that is exactly what the devil did with Eve. It's his trademark: decieve, confuse, destroy.

The Lord Himself hold you now. No more are the lies from our youth holding us captive. We are free to let the word of Christ richly dwell in us. His truth sets us free and we have the freedom to soak it in.

I'm doing better. The Lord is meeting my need and I'm doing better. My life is forever changed but not the worse. Are the things I've heard in past days less horrible than the first time? NO. But Jesus is bigger than those horrible things and therefore His purposes are higher and makes those horrible things workable....somehow I can work them with you and see what the Lord intended through all of this instead of the evil being predominant, our healer and husband the Lord Jesus is dominant and just. He is superceding all the efforts of the evil one to undo us.

So friends I ask for your continued prayers. I was told by a dear friend today that we need it at specific times each day. If you are willing...just simply do that for me and the one I mentioned before (no names are necessary because the Lord knows who you will be praying for). The devils attacks on us will only grow but we do not fear because I am a daughter of the King of Kings and he is nothing, once beautiful, now horrid seeking to kill, steal and destroy. His efforts are in vien because the Lord is on our side! Pray, pray, pray for healing, for restoration and for the protection of everything dear to us.

Thank you.
D

dying...

...inside. I am dying inside. I'm in this new place just sufficating longing for any other time than this one. I have no one to turn to accept for those I would comiserate with (the wounded). I desire a fresh perspective to pull me out of this hell but I'm trapped with no possibility of escape right now. I have an ache in my stomach that will not go away and a sadness that I have never experienced before. I cannot be myself around others...I am forced to be something else right now and I know this will slowly kill me.
Dear Jesus I need relief. You have said "I love you with an everlasting love" and I believe You. I have need and the one I go to is needy. I close my eyes and I see images that are unreal to me but not for someone else and the knott in my stomach gets worse. My life will forever be different now, but God, dear God I did not ask for this! Why? Why are you allowing this??? Why did you "consider it good" for this to happen to my one. Why dear God? Jesus you suffered greatly and I guess I am just beginning to understand the evil that you suffered. So, Jesus forgive me for the questions. Forgive me Lord for underestimating you healing touch. Forgive me! Dear Jesus I ask for a friend who will pray for me and not need the details. They need to know I am hurting but only second hand. The one is hurting so deeply words fail to order the thoughts of loss and grief. They need to understand this is now my "lot in life" and the only change will be healing from Your hand. They need to understand that I will be tempted to be cut off. estranged. dostant but that would be my enemy telling me "there is no hope". He hates me and will do anything to discourage. They need to understand that I will be tender to any jest. They need to understand that I need to process this horrible mess and that Jesus the lover of my soul will make sence of it all and bring His peace.
Friend thank you for praying. I hope you are out there. Since late Monday my world has experienced a tumultuous earth quake leaving huge gaps in my path stretching as far as the eye can see from left to right and spanning out to the horizon. Please tell me you are praying...that is all I need.

the desires of my heart

The desires of my heart are changing. For a long time all I wanted was the path I'm on right now: a career in business to help out my family. Interresting what several months of God working on you will do when you allow Him to do that.

Psalm 37:4 tells me to delight myself in the Lord and He will give me the desires of my heart. I notice a couple things. First, my desires will be right when I have the Lord first in my life. Secondly there is a promise that he will give me those desires.

As I reflect on this truth: delight myself in the Lord, I'd like to encourage you to do the same. What does that mean? I think we need a right understanding of where we are at with Him. Where am I with the Lord? Am I daily confessing sin because I am so burdened about it I have to give it over knowing when I do there is freedom again and air to breathe. Am I doing what He has asked of me? There's a long list....with family and work and church ministry. But are any of these things coming before my love for the Lord? hmmm...are they idols in my heart of hearts? That is the 2nd of the 10 commandments...pretty high up there. Am I reading the word because in my heart I know that is where the secret of life really is...hidden with God? Am I anxious, clinging desparately to something that I can't control, possibly. Am I coming to God in prayer with a thankful heart or am I not reflecting on all He has done?

There is so much more but I hope you get the idea that delighting in the Lord is more than what meets the eye...this is relationship with the King of Kings, all encompassing. I pray for my friends that read this for a soft heart, tender to His truth. The world hardens and makes us insensitive to Him, it's a natural effect. The world will not draw us to Him. Draw near to the Lord and He will draw near to you. He is waiting and watching for me to come and my friends He is waiting for you too.

With love and devoted prayers for all of you.

Mrs. M